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The Science of Scalp Health and Confidence After 40

• Julie Fairhurst • Episode 118

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Meet Lynda Easler, a registered nurse with over 40 years of experience who transformed her personal struggle with menopausal hair loss into a mission to help women over 40 regrow their hair—and their confidence.

Lynda takes us on her journey from dedicated healthcare provider to women's hair health advocate, revealing the moment her own thinning hair sent her confidence plummeting. "My confidence went down to my boots—not even to my boots, ten feet under," she confesses, describing how she hid under hats and withdrew from social situations.

The conversation dives deep into the science of women's hair loss, exploring how stress, hormonal changes, and common hair product ingredients create the perfect storm for thinning hair. Lynda brilliantly explains: "Think of your scalp as the soil to the garden. When it's fertilized and watered, flowers bloom. But if it's dry and cracked like a desert, nothing grows." This perspective shift from treating just visible hair to nurturing the scalp forms the foundation of her approach.

Beyond the technical aspects, Linda shares her emotional transformation from someone hiding her hair loss to confidently putting herself out there on social media to help others. Despite initial fear, she embraced visibility with her mantra "dance like no one's watching"—a philosophy that permeates her authentic approach to business and life.

What makes this conversation truly special is Linda's hard-won wisdom about self-care. After decades of putting others first, she learned that "if your cup's not full, you can't help others." Her parting message to women struggling with confidence rings true beyond hair health: "You can do it. You are worth it. We all have a superpower."

Ready to discover what might be affecting your hair health and how to reclaim your confidence? This episode offers both practical solutions and the emotional encouragement to begin your own transformation.


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FACEBOOK:  https://www.facebook.com/lynda.bell.560

INSTRGRAM:  https://www.instagram.com/stories/scalpqueenrn/

EMAIL:  ScalpQueenRN@gmail.com


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Julie Fairhurst – Speaker, Author, and Founder of Women Like Me

Julie Fairhurst is a champion for women’s empowerment and the founder of the Women Like Me Book Program. Since 2019, she has published 30 books and 300+ true-life stories—at no cost to the writers—giving women a platform to heal, inspire, and reclaim their power. Dedicated to breaking generational trauma one story at a time, Julie’s mission is to uplift women emotionally and financially, helping them create better lives for themselves and their families.


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Speaker 1:

Well, hi everyone. Welcome to another episode of Women Like Me Stories in Business. I'm really pleased today because I finally nailed down this fabulous lady to come on a podcast and talk with me so that you can all learn more about her. So today I'm pleased that we're going to have Linda Easler that is with us today. Now, linda is an RN, but she does more than just RN work and you'll hear about that. She also helps women who are 40 and beyond to regrow their hair and their spark. To regrow their hair and and their spark. And something I want to find out from linda in our conversation today is she also mentions where science meets soul. So, linda, yay, you made it. Thank you so much for being here. Do you want to tell everybody a little bit more about yourself and what you do or you'd like to share? Oh, sure.

Speaker 2:

so all right, are you ready? Yes, I was born.

Speaker 1:

no, yeah, okay, you can go that route, if you want.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, I'm a registered nurse. I trained in England, so I did my training there and then I emigrated to Canada in January of 88. As far as I always wanted to be a nurse always Mom was a nurse, my gran was in the healthcare industry and it's always been in my heart always. 13, I started volunteering. So I started volunteering at an old people's home, at a senior's residence, and it was in the next village and that meant like back then, like parents never drove you anywhere right, like we hopped on our bikes and off we went. So I cycled to the next village and started volunteering. I started working on weekends and then went into nursing school at the age of 18. So that giving, that caring, that serving has always been in my heart. So now I'm coming to the end of my nursing career. So now I'm coming to the end of my nursing career 40-something years Wow, I'm only 21.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, but that's wonderful, like that's a lot of years of caring for people, yeah, and giving service to people, yeah, it was really in your blood.

Speaker 2:

Obviously it was your calling when you stick with it for that many years, yeah, my heart is so much in it and I still in it, but my body is saying, girl, are you kidding me? Because I'm tired.

Speaker 1:

It happens to the best of us, but it's true though. Best of us, linda, but but, but it's true though. I mean it's um and I and I love how, like at 13 years old, yeah, you started volunteering. If you were you, just you knew your path and you followed it and it was obviously the right path for you. I just I think that's beautiful, oh, yeah, it was, it was just some.

Speaker 2:

I used to cycle there and you know back, know back. Then it would be like you know making passing out the tea and the coffee on the drinks trolley in the mornings, and then you go to the post office for them and sit and chat with them and then I'd cycle home. So that was, that was the start of it. And then, uh, let's see, in the early to nope, the late 90s, I used to volunteer in Maple Ridge at the Planned Parenthood. So I did that for a couple of years and then I was a soroptimist for many years. Soroptimist is a global organization helping women and girls. And then I stepped back from that, actually in 21, you know, when the world was in chaos.

Speaker 1:

Yes, I had my own personal chaos and it's like I don't have time for this. Yes, yes, yes, I think that that. Oh, I just had a cat run in front of me. Sorry about that. Yeah, I think that I think that happens. 2021 changed a lot of lives. A lot of a lot of people just rethought their life, yeah, which is not necessarily a bad thing.

Speaker 2:

No, it wasn't. I mean it gave us. I mean mean, my calendar had never been so empty, yeah, and it's like what am I gonna do now? I'm not so busy? And it was like you're not going out to meetings, to networking meetings or whatever it was. So it was a really good time to to reflect, I think, and sort of self-care yes, it's never in my vocabulary. No, I know I care for others, but me, no, I'm at the bottom. Yes, the way it was. But 2020-21, you know, um, I had a whole lot of stuff going on like like sold my house, left my husband, found myself in debt in a car accident, had shingles, all of the things, and it made me really think about what I wanted to do and how I was managing and the stress, menopause, all those things, like my hair, yes, yes, you know the stress, the hormones, like it was coming out and didn't want to see anybody. It's like my confidence went through down to my boots.

Speaker 2:

You know, not even to my boots 10 foot under you know confidence and and it's just like, oh, but you know, as a nurse I used to have to perm my hair. I permed the heck out of my hair because we used to wear these hats Right, and my hair was so fine Like my hat wouldn't stay on, so I used to perm it for it to have some and like 20 grips in my hat to keep it in place.

Speaker 1:

Oh, and so does that. Do you think that that damaged your hair? Then? Like all of that perming.

Speaker 2:

Oh, absolutely, from the age of 18 to my early 30s, yeah.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, well, one thing that I did want to ask you about is that you help women over 40 to grow their hair, of course, and their spark, and so was that what inspired you to take on this mission. Is that what? It was your own issues that you were having?

Speaker 2:

Yes, yeah, so my hair was very fine and it was damaged and I used to have to wash it every single day to make it look half decent, right, and I thought it looked great, but looking back at the photos, no, it didn't. Yeah, so it was actually like kind of like 2018, I think. I started using the products and, like it made such a difference. I couldn't believe it. And then the COVID thing happened. But going through menopause, like it was coming out, and then during like 2021, I got so sick with that C word everybody got and it was terrible. But I decided to purchase into the company in terms of like so I could be an affiliate. Yeah, I only wanted the discount, that's it.

Speaker 1:

Well, that worked out, didn't it?

Speaker 2:

You know what do they call those Kit snappers? You just want the kit. So when all this stuff was going on in 21, I'm like how the heck am I going to make some extra money? Yes, and I'm like, hmm, I've been through this. I love the products. Let's share the products, and that's how it started.

Speaker 1:

Yeah yeah, well, I'm blessed with very thick hair and, uh, very, you know, I just I've got friends with quite thin hair but I've, I've been quite blessed, so I haven't experienced this hair loss the way some of my friends have, and certainly how you have. How do you think, like? Do you think that it's a misconception that women, about like, about like, do? Do people really realize that women do lose their hair because we, we know, men do, because they go bald or you know? But but I'm just wondering if it, if it's something that people are really aware of.

Speaker 2:

I don't think they think, maybe, like they see women losing their hair, but don't put a lot of thought into the reasons, because there can be many reasons. Yes, the underlying health concerns hormonal imbalance, stress being the biggest one, right. And if you're not eating a healthy diet and the nutrients that your body needs, then you're not. You're not really giving your body the nutrients that it needs. You're not. You're not really giving your body the nutrients that it needs.

Speaker 2:

And then, very sadly, in in the hair care industry, there's a lot of products that may be a high end, or maybe they're from the store, and they contain toxic ingredients and it's those ingredients that are absorbed into our bodies and it's those ingredients like the um, the silicones, the parabens, the sulfates.

Speaker 2:

They sit on top of your hair and they clog the hair follicles, and when that is, it's basically suffocating your hair follicles, and so you're washing your hair and it's just weighing it down and down and down, and when you've got that layer of a build-up, nothing can get through up and nothing can get through going down, and so people start losing their hair because the follicles are stuck in this buildup. And when you're brushing your hair, then these, these hair strands are left in the shedding stage, the resting phase, and they come out, but because they have been clogged and they're not active, then nothing new is shooting through. So then you're going to get thinning hair, patches of hair like for me it was all here or front, like oh so I have new baby hair. But even postpartum the hormone imbalance causes hair loss, trauma, surgery, all these your body's causes. But for me it was because of, like menopause and hormones, right, which is why I focused on that.

Speaker 1:

But there are many, many reasons yeah, wow, it's um and it could be traumatic yeah, very much.

Speaker 2:

So, yes, oh, my confidence was not there. And going out the house, it's like, okay, where's my hat, where's my toque, where's my you know you want to hide it and then put it down. Yes, aw, to me it was almost like I was embarrassed. I was embarrassed, which isn't a good thing. We shouldn't feel like that as women because of something that's happening to our bodies. It's like the menopause hot flashes. You know you get hot. And then you know my, my ex-husband, used to be like don't come near me, don't touch me, you're all wet.

Speaker 1:

I need to go away.

Speaker 1:

yes, yes, yeah, the man that bears is laughing hard, I'm sure, because well, one of my questions that I wanted to ask you was what does the role um, what role does stress and hormone imbalance play in health and in hair health? Um, but I think that you've answered answered that, and so so I know that you use a certain type of product. So what is that? What's the difference between that product and going and picking something up at the drugstore, or um, the products that I use are sort of clean products.

Speaker 2:

They're plant-based, they're they're anti-aging, and who doesn't love that?

Speaker 2:

Yes, absolutely yes they are scientifically based. We have a scientific board that tests and looks at all these ingredients. What are these ingredients going into the products? And because they are naturally plant-based products, you know there's no fillers, there's no film, so so, um, the products are going to do what they say they're going to do and, you know, in the store you might pick something off the shelf that's for dry hair or a dandruff or whatever, right?

Speaker 2:

Whereas our products not only look at hair concerns, they look at the hair type as well and they're very personalized. So, as a um affiliate, I'm able to talk to people, talk about, listen to what their hair concerns are and make recommendations for the correct products. Um, and so, like, I think, like you know, the products out there have, like you know, they sit on top of the hair strands and with our products um, it's the only they contain our rejuvenique oil, which is our hero product, and the molecules on that oil are so tiny it has the ability to penetrate all three layers of the hair strand, so it's been able to be absorbed and heal from the inside out. It doesn't sit on top, wow.

Speaker 1:

So if a woman's losing some hair and she's diligent at using the product, so how long, like when, do people like I know everybody of course is going to be different but say on an average, when would, or you even when will people start to see some? It is regrowth?

Speaker 2:

Yeah, yeah. So depending on the products that you buy. So I have a whole slew of products because, depending on where I am in my, the month of my hair. You know it's not the monthly cycle anymore. It the month of my hair. Yeah, you know it's not the monthly cycle anymore, it's the month of the hair.

Speaker 2:

Am I going to get it trimmed? Am I going to get it colored? Am I, is it time for a hydration mask, like all those things? But the product is. They use such a certain way, like we always say, you need to shampoo twice, always shampoo twice, because the first shampoo is not going to clean your hair, it's going to remove that environmental build-up like the dirt, and and then the second shampoo is going to actually clean your hair. And our products are scalp focused. They focus on your scalp first, because if you don't focus on the scalp and you have a healthy scalp, yeah, what you're going to put onto your hair is is really a mute point, because it's like putting regular gas into a vehicle where you use premium gas or top of the line. So you've always got to think about what are you doing to your scalp and most people start to see results. 30, 60, 90 days is a process. Of course, it's not going to happen overnight.

Speaker 1:

So if someone's looking for a quick fix, yeah no, no, well, and I don't know really, are there any quick fixes?

Speaker 2:

no, no, but it's like. It's like the diet industry, right. People look for quick fixes and when they don't see a result, they move on.

Speaker 1:

Yes yeah, you know, in a lot of the uh information I was uh, I was uh snooping on you before our podcast um, you do say that, um, that it's more than hair, it's healing. So what do you find with that? Is that a healing of? Like what is it a healing of?

Speaker 2:

It's a healing of getting the old me back. I'm a very outspoken person, I laugh, I use humor, I'm positive gratitude. But when I was going through that I began to shrink into myself, didn't want to go out, didn't want to see people, because I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin, right and not not only that. So that's sort of my body as a whole and my emotions, but the hair too. You have to heal the scalp before you heal your hair. Yes, and so our scalp. We have, like your gut, our scalp has microbiome. So if your gut health is out of whack, you know you're going to get nausea, you're going to get heartburn, you're going to get, you know I won't talk about bowels, but as a nurse we do the same thing with your.

Speaker 2:

scalp you um a balanced microbiome and so you know the, the viruses, the fungi, the bacteria, all sort of melding with each other to get that, yeah, if it's not balanced, you you know you get things like a dry scalp, an oily scalp, itchy scalp. Yes, and that's what one of the things during menopause, I was forever scratching my scalp.

Speaker 1:

And I'm like darn it, I have nits. No, no.

Speaker 2:

I understand. Yeah, it took me back to my school days and the school nurse used to come and look at your hair.

Speaker 1:

Yes, yes, yeah, I think I remember those days, linda, nichi Nora.

Speaker 2:

We used to call her Nichi Nora bug explorer. It was like so dry and onion, yes, yeah, wow. And then the thinning on top of that, yes, so our products are actually designed to remove the buildup, right, right. And so when you remove that buildup, it's then the products that you're using can be absorbed and penetrate into the hair. Yeah, yeah, it's like, how can I put it? So think of your scalp as the soil to the garden. Yeah, when it's fertilized, when it's watered and taken care of, you're going to get flowers that bloom. Yeah, but if it's like a desert and it's dry and cracked, you're not going to get nothing. So the scalp is really the foundation of healthy hair.

Speaker 1:

That's a great way of thinking of it, for sure, you know, linda, I would like to just kind of turn a little bit from our conversation, because I have been following you for a while, we've known each other for a little while now, and I love your Instagram. Oh, I just love it. And but no, and I'm bringing it up for a reason, and I'm bringing it up because you were talking about women being embarrassed, women being feeling shy, not feeling like they want to put themselves out there. But, but you've just put yourself out there, girl, and I love it, I love what you're doing.

Speaker 2:

Thank you, you see that now. But I never started like that. No, like you know, like Instagram, like social media, really didn't like bloom or like blow up until COVID, right, right, and I was doing in-person meetings and I love that because I like to. I really want someone to see my face and I want to see their reaction and you can get so much more information when you're doing a face-to-face. That's part of my job that I do now in my day job, in my nursing, I'm always meeting people face to face. Yes, you know, when somebody says to you I'm fine.

Speaker 2:

You're like uh-huh, like tell me more. Yeah, it reminds me of that little meme. Um, what show was it? The guy Ross is it going? I'm fine.

Speaker 1:

Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes exactly.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I guess, but where was I, oh, so when I first started? It's like I had no idea about social media.

Speaker 1:

I didn't.

Speaker 2:

And even now, like going live on social media, I almost get like palpitations. It's like, oh, I can do a video and post it, I can do reels and post it, but actually doing lives is really hard for me. And people say that to people and they say, really, I'm like, yeah, and I think it's because you don't know who's out there and you could be speaking to, you don't know, and you're like, yeah, is anybody gonna jump on your live or not? Is anybody gonna see me? Yes, yes, yeah. To the point now it's like I'm not gonna be perfect, I'm just gonna just gonna do it like, stop, do it now and take action.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, and that's what I love about watching you as well. I mean, they're entertaining and educational, but I love how you just you're just out there, fear, whether there's fear or no fear, you're just, you've decided that this is what you're going to. It's just a way of the new world. Of course, this is what we have to do if we want to to to build our business, for sure. But I know there's just so many women, because I know that you have been in networking for a while and I know that you're running one of the BC women networking groups. I think Are you in Coquitlam?

Speaker 2:

Yeah, the Tri-Cities, yes, yeah and so you must see that.

Speaker 1:

Yeah, you see that, that fear that a lot of women have.

Speaker 2:

Yeah, and it's supporting them through that and encouraging them. You know it, for me, serving other women, helping them, it's not about telling them, being negative. It's all about building them up, lifting them up and let's do it, let's do it together. Let me help you, let me show you, and there's no gatekeeping. It's like we can all benefit from this. Sometimes in my nursing career it's like oh, you know, you've asked for something oh, I'm not going to tell you that?

Speaker 1:

because, yes, tell me, share it so I can share it moving forward, share it to everybody no for sure, absolutely, yeah, yeah, and I've, because I've noticed as well that that we, as women, I think the next generation won't have our problem. My granddaughter is 12 and she's on live and doing stuff out there on the with the kids, right, right and so, but for definitely for women our age and and we're you know, who didn't grow up with being so out there it is fearful, but but it is also the way that we build our business. So so if we, we just have to get over that and I just wanted to bring that up about you because I just thought that was so wonderful, thank you, you know, yeah, and you're just showing other.

Speaker 2:

bring that up about you because I just thought, that was so wonderful.

Speaker 1:

Thank you, you know yeah, and you're just showing other women that just get out there and do it. I'm still alive. You didn't kill me.

Speaker 2:

You know, and you just laugh with it, you roll with it. Yeah, yeah, okay, yeah, I could be the source of your entertainment. That's it. Yeah, yeah, okay, yeah, I could be the source of your entertainment. That's right, yeah.

Speaker 1:

So, linda, I have five, six questions that I love to ask my podcast guests to get to know you a little bit better. So do you mind if I throw them at you? Okay, okay, you can do it, you can do it. Okay, okay, you can do it, you can do it Okay. So the first one is and I know you just got, where did you just get back from?

Speaker 2:

Oh, I went to South of Spain and Gibraltar.

Speaker 1:

Right, right, yes, so okay. Well, if you could travel anywhere in the world tomorrow, where would you go and why would you go there?

Speaker 2:

I would go back to Gibraltar in a heartbeat. I was actually born there and so was my brother, and my brother went back 10, 15 years. I'd never been back when I was a baby, like when we left. So I went and stayed with a friend in the south of Spain and then hopped over to Gibraltar and it was amazing, amazing, you know how. Like I immigrated from the UK, so it's something like I don't mind doing things by myself, like I'm going to travel, I'm going to do it, make my mind up, I'm gone. So when I went to Gibraltar, it it was very emotional for me, very emotional. I felt a connect. I felt a connection. I felt that this is where I was supposed to be or know about, and it was absolutely amazing. I found the church that I was baptized in, where we used to live, the hospital I was born in, like yeah, wow, that last piece of the jigsaw puzzle, like being put in there, right, yeah, loved it.

Speaker 1:

Oh, that's beautiful. I love that and I think it would. Just that little bit that you said is an encouragement to other people. I know my, we, we come from uh, well, I'm from here, but my, my ancestors come from Norway and I've got a son who just wants to go there. So bad, and as you're talking, I'm thinking myself maybe that's the missing piece for him. Yeah, yes, wow, okay, next one.

Speaker 2:

What is your favorite way to unwind after a busy day? Music, oh, lovely Music. Listening to my music. Well, you know, I do put my feet up with a cup of tea after work and watch the good old Coronation Street of course you do.

Speaker 1:

Of course you do.

Speaker 2:

That's awesome okay music is is right there because, uh, when you're out walking and you got music, you just sing along and I don't care if there's anybody watching it. Just, I grew up with 60s music with my parents, so I tend to migrate to that music. That's beautiful. That's beautiful.

Speaker 1:

Okay, what is a favorite book that has inspired you?

Speaker 2:

A favorite book that has inspired you, a favorite book that has inspired. Me there's many. But you know what like? There's so many personal, uh, development books, so many business books, yeah, but there's nothing better for me than getting up in the mornings, cup of coffee and reading my Bible.

Speaker 1:

Oh, and there's so. There's so many. What's the word I'm looking for? There's so much wisdom in the Bible. Yeah, yes, yes, oh, good for you, that's awesome. Ok, what about a favorite motivational quote that keeps you going?

Speaker 2:

What is? What's the word is? I used to have it at the end of my email a dance right. No one's watching.

Speaker 1:

Right, that's totally you. That is totally you. I can see why that's your favorite quote.

Speaker 2:

It's. I used to be worried about what people think, what people said all of the things, and it's now I say I don't, I'm me. I'm showing up authentically. This is me, this is who I am. Some people are going to love it, some people it's not their cup of tea. Some people I'll say jog on.

Speaker 1:

So that's so true, exactly, exactly, okay, so this is an interesting one. If you could have dinner with any women or woman, I should say any woman, woman in history who would it be, and why?

Speaker 2:

Florence Nightingale.

Speaker 1:

Oh.

Speaker 2:

Florence Nightingale because of, like, the first female nurse that made a huge difference. I mean, you've got the, you know, you've got that documented and that's what started like nursing females. And so it would be her if it wasn't for her, if it wasn't for my gran, my mom and I just see that giving that, giving that serving.

Speaker 1:

Yeah.

Speaker 2:

Beautiful.

Speaker 1:

That's beautiful, I want to be like her. Beautiful, that's beautiful. I want to be like her. Yeah, that's beautiful. Okay, my last question. If you could whisper one truth into the ear of every woman who's struggling right now, what would you say?

Speaker 2:

You can do it, you are worth it.

Speaker 1:

Do it because you've got it inside you oh.

Speaker 2:

I love that. We all have a superpower. Yeah, yeah. And once you've done it, once you'll realize how great that feels and you'll keep on doing it.

Speaker 1:

Wow, I love that. Linda, thank you so much. Well, we all have gotten to know you a little bit better. Yes, and I just I loved your answers, and the last one was that's good. We need to hear that, as women, we do. Yeah.

Speaker 2:

We do, and there's so many, you know, negatives, um like, let's lift each other up absolutely yeah, yeah, for sure, yeah.

Speaker 1:

Well, linda, I have enjoyed our conversation. I you are. You are just a wonderful lady. No, no, you are no words. No, you take that. You take that because you are, and I love what you're up to and I love that you know one day you're going to retire, but yet you're not going to retire. You're just going to go on to continue helping people, which is what you've been doing for 47 years.

Speaker 2:

No 47. Something not 47.

Speaker 1:

40 something 40 something, 40 something, yes, okay, 40 something, but it's in your blood. It's in your blood to help, and I think that that's beautiful and it'll be fun to see what you do next.

Speaker 2:

So yeah, thank you, you're welcome okay, everybody.

Speaker 1:

so if you would like to reach out to linda, um, for whatever, at whatever reason, but certainly if you are a woman or a man, but, uh, we're talking to ladies today and you're having some issues with your hair, talk to Linda, because she's got something that's been helping her and helping some of the people that that she's been helping. So, you know, get out there and try and don't be shy. Don't be shy. You know, reach out because because there is help out there and I will have all of Linda's details in the detail section of the podcast and of the video so that you'll be able to find Linda. So, linda, any last words for our listeners out there.

Speaker 2:

Yes, take care of you. Self-care is so important. Yes, yes, and I'm just learning that I'm a slow learner. Fill your cup, and if your cup's not full you can't help others. So fill your cup, yeah.

Speaker 1:

Beautiful. Thank you for that. I appreciate it. Okay, everybody, so we will see you next time with another episode. Not quite sure when that's going to be, but I will definitely see you again, so take care everyone. Bye, thank you.

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